I thought I forgot about the feeling of being cheated on because its been over ¾ years now that I’ve experienced that much pain from caused by a single guy I literally gave my entire world to. Since it unexpectedly happened recently, it reminded me how hurt I was. When you hear bad news of your significant other cheating on you from someone else, you begin to become delusional and confused to why they would do such a thing? What made them do it? And how did it make them feel afterwards? You love, and never want to let go, but the person knows they did you wrong and believes you deserve better so they make the decision to leave you so you can find someone who will love you the same. It still does not justify why he would cheat when he had a loyal woman, that gave him everything he ever wanted.

I have so many reasons to hate you; but I don’t, I don’t want to resent you for the rest of my life. When I decided to let go, I told you that whatever decision you decide to make in life, I just want you to be so so happy wherever you may go. Because I love you. Like a idiot, I still do. I am still in pain, but I know I’ll get over you. The sad part is, all his friends don’t like him anymore nor do they want anything to do with him after what he did. Even though I lost a boyfriend, I gained a lot of great friends along the way.